Lesson Learned: Don't Ignore the Universe

In the wee hours of October 30th, I connected with my soulmate.  It was soul-shatteringly wonderful.  In an instant, my previous life was frozen in memory, and my new life exploded into a three dimensional tapestry of vibrant possibilities.  This monumental event flowed as naturally as a bubbling brook.  Fitting, because I believe our connection signified an alignment with the natural flow of Universal energy.

It was unfortunate that the realization of the inevitability of this new relationship occurred while in the midst of an existing relationship.  I paused, then, delaying the certainty of pain my admission would cause.  I didn't, couldn't, wait long, however.  When I told my girlfriend of my feelings for Iris, tears, confusion, and sadness followed.  Many other people are faced with similar situations, and many other people choose to avoid this type of pain.  Of course, they trade one pain for another.  This was one time in my life where I felt the pull of the Universe and I listened.  Within the context of love, one cannot commit while longing for another.

In hindsight, I should have known that Iris was my soulmate.  There were countless signs.  Not long after meeting her, I walked her back to her apartment with some friends following close behind.  We had just returned from an awesome Pagan Night Out, and  we needed to recuperate for a bit.  When we arrived, Iris announced that she had to lay down for a nap.  Smiling, I helped her fall (literally) into bed.  And then... I acted without thought.  I pulled the blankets up to her chin and tucked her in, saying "I will always be here for you."  I didn't know where the words came from, but I knew they were true.  And the accompanying feelings were just as true, but I buried them.  Although I hadn't used the word "love" in my mind, the feeling was the same.  And since Iris was, at the time, in a committed relationship, I made a conscious choice to be only a friend.  In time, I forgot about that feeling, believing Iris and I had a purely spiritual connection.  Even so, our shared path through life brought us ever closer.

And now, happiness permeates everything.  I feel as if this experience is an incredible, priceless gift.  And underscoring my gratefulness, is the conviction that I cannot take it for granted.  I'm both excited and content to dedicate myself to building up the Pagan community, hand in hand with my soulmate.  Universe: I promise not to ignore the flow, anymore.